NEININCH

I used to post multiple times a day to a blog. I did it for almost fifteen years. But a lot of it was just trauma dumping, creative writing, or just venting shit in the heat of the moment. Things that I marked pretty clearly as such. And sure enough, people took things out of context and blew them up. It got to the point I hid the journal behind a password and eventually just stopped. It’s not that I bottle it up, I found other outlets. But I do love journaling.

The problem is, I worry about people twisting my words and coming at me about them without ever asking about them first. Just whole conclusions based on a part of a paragraph. No reading the rest of it for a total contextual explanation. No attempting to hold back judgment before talking to me in case I misworded or forgot to type whole sentences all together. Just straight to attack with ears shut off.

So I started this. It has been at least five or six years since my previous blog was closed down. I mean, I’m the one who closed it down. It’s not like the feds came in or some web administrator came onto my website and deleted it all. I made the choice to try and leave it in the past.

I left Facebook, Instagram, Threads in the past. But I shouldn’t leave blogging in the past. So I’ll try to shake off those feelings and keep writing.